January 16, 2011

This last weekend has been a mix of emotions. Some good, some bad, but it was mostly good. I love the friends that I have at utah state and will never forget any of them! They have made an impact on my life and mean so much to me. Friday night was a fantastic night! A lot of us went over to party at pike and had a great time. I had to not think about leaving all of them, but I did pretty good that night. Saturday night was a little harder though. It was my last night there for a long while and that was hard, but it was a good night overall. The only bad part of the weekend was trying to deal with an unfinished situation. So I am pretty shy and when I need to talk to someone about something important, it never comes out right, that's pretty much what happened. I tried talking to this guy that I really like, earlier on saturday, about how I feel and how things were going to work out with me leaving, and I did not do a very good job expressing the way I feel. It really went nowhere. We were both having a hard time with this whole thing and I just wish I would have really told him how I feel and that it would have come out the way I planned it to. So I went on the rest of that night and it was kind of awkward, but it was still fun. As I was saying bye to everyone when I left that night, I said bye to him and it was probably the worst goodbye I've ever had with anyone, it was just so unfinished. So that was a hard night and today was kind of hard also, but I know that everything will work out and that things happen for a reason even if we don't know the reason right at that moment. It will be a big change for me and i know I'll have great times and i'm sure i'll have some rough times but at this point I think I'm ready for whatever comes my way!